All of us might wish at times that we lived in a more tranquil world, but we don't. And if our times are difficult and perplexing, so are they challenging and filled with opportunity.

Robert Kennedy

Monday, March 21, 2011

Waiting...

This waiting is excruciating. It has now been 3 weeks since I got medically cleared. There is absolutely no rhyme or reason, according to the wiki Peace Corps, as to when the invitations are issued. The time line varies from 2 days to 168. Argh!
In the meantime, it's really hard to focus. Since I can't really focus at work thinking that I'm getting out of there soon. But at the same time, I don't know for sure if I am which prevents me from doing anything detrimental or stupid. But I know for sure I just don't belong there any more. 
Seeing all the devastation in Japan and watching all the good that people are doing, it's hard to be around such selfish people day in and day out. Thankfully, I still have my solid core of girls that surround me and make me laugh. The girls at work have been my sanity. I haven't told too many of them, as there are only a handful that I trust completely, but they really have been super supportive. They are what has kept me going in that place for so many years and they are the reason that I will actually, at times, miss it.
My patience is at it's end and I really just want to know as soon as possible what the next few years of my life hold. Waiting sucks...